Thursday, November 30, 2006

Negative/positive.

There's a convention that "negative" is bad and "positive" is good, eg, "Banish the negative energy," or "Think positive thoughts!" There's another convention with negative and positive, that "negative" refers to "feminine," lunar correspondances while "positive" refers to masculine, solar correspondances. Most "Witchcraft 101" books will include both concepts without a hint of apology or embarrassment. It shows up in unrelated places, too; the publisher I work for sees fit to include this note in the style guide for our medical journals:

"negative/normal. Observations, results, or findings are normal or abnormal, not negative or positive. Cultures, tests, and reactions may be positive or negative. EEG, ECG, and radiographs are normal or abnormal."

In other words, people need to be reminded that "positive" and "negative" are neutral concepts, not moral judgements. A negative test result can be a very good thing, or it may be meaningless, or it may be horrible, depending on the test. Yet we use these terms all the time as a form of judgement.

I try to avoid using these words unless I'm really referring to polarity. The popular moral definitions is too vague and misleading for me. I don't "banish negative energy" because I believe that words have meanings, and even if I think what I really mean is "banish the forces that would harm me" my subconcious might not figure that out. I would rather say what I mean, rather than what I think I mean. If I want to banish the baddies, I do so explicitly. So, I usually subsitute "harmful" for "negative" if I come across the word, if that is in fact what is meant.

I also don't like the "positive/negative" construction because it is so strictly binary. This is fine when talking about polarities, but when talking about morality it implies that things can only be one or the other. I don't believe this, so I try not to talk about these things in a binary way.

"Purify" is another word I try to avoid. It's been used in such awful ways in the past, as an excuse for mass murder, as a motive for self-mutilation and self-starvation, as an excuse to exclude - it simply has too many unpleasant connotations for me. I use "bless" instead as a term that is neutral and pleasant, calling down the beneficial attention of the gods, rather than the "rejecting the unclean" ideas that lurk behind "purify."

In a similar vein, when I do the opening of the solitary AODA ritual, I change ". . . Without peace, our work may not proceed" to ". . . Only with peace, can our work proceed." I don't like starting any working with "our work may not proceed," whatever the context. I try to keep that sort of thing in mind whenever I compose a ritual.


Monday, November 20, 2006

by fire and fleet and candle light...

I haven't posted much of anything this month, so consider this an update.

I'm wending my way through Malory, and loving it. I haven't read most of those stories since I was a kid. At the same time, I'm reading Gareth Knight on the Arthurian tradition, which is certainly thought-provoking and helping me to make some connections. I have a hard time with the whole Atlantis thing. Somehow I have to come to some understanding of that, because I can't believe in it literally but it's all over the Druid tradition, so I need to find some peace with it rather than have my brain come to a full stop every time I see the word. I'll have some better-developed thoughts about that once I've finished the book. I'm also reading Philip Carr-Gomm's "Druid Way" which is very sweet and poetic and makes me wish all the more that I could afford OBOD.

I've been working with my tinwhistle and having fun with it. I look forward to whistle practice every day. The two songs I'm learning for this month are "Lyke Wake Dirge" and "Lewis Bridal Song."

I wanted to do gardening as my elective spiral, but that's not going to work. The idea was to get a community garden patch and work at learning how to get some really good yields from an urban space. I found out that there's a three-year waiting list for a slot in any of the community gardens nearby. I'm already doing as much as I can with my tiny, shaded backyard. Learning more will have to wait until I have the space. Instead, I want to learn more about fiber techniques. I want to learn to handspin. I want to know how to take a pile of animal hair and transform it into a useful item using low-tech items: a comb, a drop spindle, a crochet hook.

Of course, I'm meditating and doing the SoP every day, and practicing the full ritual form once a week or so. I'm also studying the Ogham every day, trying to get them all by heart. Once I have that basic level of knowledge I will start doing daily divinations, but that will be at least another month or two. I might make that a New Year's thing - an ogham reading every day in 2007.

I'm so glad I found this path. I know that many people find labels confining, but I'm delighted to have found one - I have the opposite feeling: I find the label freeing. It gives me focus and an orientation, so rather than trying to run in every direction at once I have a particular point on the horizon picked as a heading.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

November goals

In order to keep myself on track, I'm going to make a list of goals for each month, and then report on what I actually accomplish at the end of the month. Here's my list for November:

November goals:

Earth path

-Daily SoP
-Daily meditation

Water path

-Read Philip Carr-Gomm, The Druid Way (Shaftesbury: Element, 1993).

Fire path

-Memorize closing of ritual, work with full ritual form at least once a week

Air path

-Finish Malory, read Gareth Knight, start Geoffrey of Monmouth

Spirit path

-Read Jim Nollman, Spiritual Ecology (New York: Bantam, 1990
-Finish “Where the Wasteland Ends”

Music spiral

-Practice whistle at least 10 minutes a day. Memorize 3 more tunes.

Divination spiral

-Memorize first 10 oghams – names, trees, elemental correspondances, divinatory meanings.

Healing spiral

- Work with Dandelion daily

Elective spiral (Organic gardening)

-Read “Square Foot Gardening”
-start planning next year’s garden, find out about community resources.